I dont want anyway to thinkn I am attention seeking.. At same time I do not think anyone would ever bother reading but I need to let my feelings out before I do anything bad for me

There are times when I feel worthless, those times are almost 24/7. I didn’t have the best life, but I think that it could be worse.. I used to break down about 5 to 10 times a day.. The break downs reduced because I just didn’t want to look like a cry baby to the person I fancy.. I was succesful at trying to stay strong, but it hasn’t lasted long because someone said something to me and reminded me of the most painful mistake I have done in my life which made me feel shitter than I have ever been.. At the moment everything is just pointless and worthless.

One thing I don’t get is why I have to go through so much and it every day is getting worse and why am I so stupid for doing so many mistakes in my life? Why can’t I just do something right or why can’t I just make my parents pround and not make them feel likr they have worse child in whole universe

Some yr 11 called me slow girl

Dear brother,
In this letter I would like to let you know how much I love you. Before you were born I never thought that anybody could change me so much.

You are my love and inspiration. I could not even imagine this past 6 months because without your smile my life would be so much depressing.

Every day when you smile my day is so much better and I have a motivation for whole day. I could spend whole day with you without getting bored.

Today you probably experienced your first pain as you hit yourself with a toy and you cried so much that you didn’t want anything. Poor you well you were laughing after you woke up so I think you forgot about your whole thing.

When you were born you were smallest thing ever. I was scared to hold you in my arms because you were very small. At beginning I was scared to talk or do anything, I didn’t want to do something wrong.. There were days when I wasn’t allowed to see you because I had flu and I could pass it to you, that wasn’t a great experience. I used and still am babysitting you and they are best experiences ever!!!

I still remember first time you smiled at me which was best thing ever. I remember how I first changed your dipper and I did it wrong and until last week I always did it wrong. I remember when you laughed and I felt special as its wasn’t easy to make you laugh at that time

I have no idea when you will read this or if you will ever read this. I hope that this is going to be a good memory for you. There are many pictures you will see. It’s getting late now so I will finish this up with….
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

1. people who bully others to make themselves look better 
2. people who lie 
3. not being able to be with somebody you have feelings for
4. cheesy songs that have no emotion in them
5. that feeling of being left out 
6. feeling depressed 
7. when someone important walks out your life 
8. when radio station play songs you dont like 
9. tv advert breaks 
10. when an epissode finishes at most intresting place and you just wonder what happens next 
11. when on facebook people update their statuses evey second 
12. when you try to speak and some annoying person interupts you 
13. when someone is up themself
14. when you are in pain and all your plans for the day are ruinned 
15. when people say they will meet up with you but then change their mind in last minute 
16. when you are hungury and there is no food you could eat 
17. when parents force me to eat something i dont want 
18. when some people have fake tan AND tons of make up and it makes them look mega orange and so fake 
19. when someone takes your usual sit in class 
20. when someone a teacher almost forgot about homework and someone reminds about about it 
21. when you know you need to stop eating junk food but you just cant live without it 
22. when someone smelly complains about other people smell
23. when people get the wrong idea
24. when someone tells your secret to everyone when they promised they wont tell anyone